Another Day Stronger…

Worked at home today, needed to spend the time in the quiet and being able to focus on what I’m struggling with between my ears.  Got a lot done, and sorted through a bunch of emails that I’d been too busy to get to.  Tomorrow, I have some meetings to attend, and a call to sit through, but after that, I’ll be able to do what I’ve got to do to get completely caught up for September.  Next week, I have some time scheduled to do some recordings, and that will get me back to where I need to be.  (It’s all good…I’m just trying to position myself better.)

Tonight, Charles and I went to Panera for dinner – I completely forgot to start the crock pot this morning, so the curry I was wanting to make is still in the freezer.  We had a nice dinner together – on a cool night, the warm French Onion soup hit the spot.  Afterward, we went to Cold Stone Creamery for the Worlds Biggest Ice Cream Party.  It’s a Make a Wish foundation fund raiser, and is part of a little girl’s wish.  (She designed her own ice cream and is using it to raise funds for the Make a Wish foundation).   It was caramel apple ice cream, with graham crackers and dark chocolate flakes in it – it was pretty good.  (And enough fo a sweet taste for me to get over a serious sugar craving).   It was a nice treat – and while we were there, the rain FINALLY broke, and gave us the must beautiful rainbow that I had seen for a while.  It was so bright and vivid, and was very much the bright spot that I needed at the time.  (Although, having a date with Charles was also a pretty awesome bright spot).

This weekend, I don’t think we’re going to be doing that much.  I want to spend time in the studio working on Christmas cards and some other projects.  I have some painting to do, and some scrapbooking as well.  I also have laundry to do, and the other standard weekly chores that need done.  I’ve been trying to keep ahead of the clutter, and work on decorating and making the house ‘just so’.

I saw a quote the other day, that I’m trying to remember, and I’ll probably make myself a little sign to hang in my cube at work to remind me – it was “It is what it is, but it’s what you make of it that matters”.  I have been taking so much stuff to heart lately, and that’s just not good – in a lot of different ways.  And when I let things, people, situations ‘get to me’, it affects a whole lot of parts of my life that really don’t deserve to be affected.  ALthough, I’m doing better at turning it off, there is still a piece of me that chews away at things and keeps it being a point of contention.  Which sucks sometimes – and can result in me saying and doing things that don’t reflect well on me.

So, now, it’s the rebuilding phase – and I’ll just need to prove myself.  I can do it.  I know I can.  It will take the implementation of the Fuck-It Bucket, (which I definitely plan on doing), and welding it shut when needed.

Right now, Charles is sitting on the living room floor brushing on Phinny – who would rather have NOTHING to do with it.  Nikki is orbiting the living room, and is being her normal neurotic self.  It’s a nice quiet night at home with my family.  This is what I need to recharge.  And the recharging is worth it.

Tomorrow marks 11 work days until our vacation, and 15 days until we head out for a week of relaxation and happy Mousing.  It’s definitely something that I’m looking forward to!